If you want to know, I feel really, I mean, REALLY deppresed. I can't do anything right and I don't know NOTHING. I'm lonely because I'm horrible person. I already gave up on my drawing talent. I fell like I'm gonna to deactivate off this account...
The reason why I'm like this is very complicated. I was bullied since my age of 6/7 and then I became very nervous and anxious every fucking day. I slowly became more and more less confident in myself, and this issue became worser when I entred puberty at the age of 11.
Kids hated me and I even got nightmares about them. They bullied me because of my religion, behavior (I'm awfully shy and quiet), good grades and appearance (I got acne problem). These days, I cry EVERY day and I feel like I'm psycho or schizophreniac (I feel like people laugh or stare at me). I don't feel like doing anything. I promised to myself that these summer break I'll do awesome things and improve my skills, but I don't care anymore. Sometimes I wish I could just be dead (I know this statement is pretty selfish), but at the same time, I feel guilty. I also have problems with my mean attitude toward my family which I love and I also get jelaous easily when I see happy people. I also lie a lot (because I'm bored or the fear). If I continue to behave like this, I feel like I'll suck at school later and than that I'll be sent to the pschyatrist.
Plz unwatch me if you don't really like me #sad #depression #teen